||[Oct. 11th, 2009|01:27 am]
So, I need some advice.
About 7 or 8 months ago I ended my friendship with Bruce. I thought it was a good idea at the time. This was right after he quit the team and screwed over his debate partner Sydney. Everyone told me that Bruce was crazy and lied but I never believed them until that happened. Then I started questioning everything he said to me, and started getting really annoyed any time he tried to talk to me. So I started blocking him on aim, gmail, everything possible, and decided I did not want to be friends with him anymore. We ended our friendship via e-mail, and I was not so nice about it.
In hindsight, I'm not sure that I did the right thing. The more I think about it, the more I think I made the wrong decision. I honestly think that my life was super crazy at the time (doing 24 credits in one semester, 2 jobs, debate, 2 honors thesis', and preparing for marriage to name a few). I viewed Bruce as a source of instability, and it was something that I could control so I cut him out of my life. Overall, Bruce was not a bad friend. He was actually a really good friend at times. He helped me out in debate, was there for me through the whole michelle debacle, and was fun to hang out with. Now that my life isn't crazy busy and I have time to think about it, I'm starting to regret my decision. I'm positive that how I ended the friendship really hurt Bruce, and I know I was being selfish about the whole situation. I want to apologize to him, but I'm afraid that he won't care/listen/respond, or whatever.
Is this a mistake I should try to fix, or should I just forget about it?